Hungry to Work

I am so ready to come back home. Logically, I know I'm doing what seems like the smarter decision but I'm so ready to be back home among my aspiring filmmaker colleagues and struggling actor friends; I'm eager to see if my representation will have me back as a client or if I'll have to trudge forward alone. Do the odds that they will become less likely the longer I stay away? I worry about these things and timing; maybe I'm supposed to come back now, or maybe this June, or maybe next December but how do I know?

I'd set my original deadline to the end of June 2019, a date which should allow me to completely pay off all my credit card debt and ideally start an extremely meager savings. But I'm being swayed somewhat by the idea that, if I do stay in Boston until the end of December 2019, I could significantly increase that savings and come back to LA with a much stronger safety net. But does that come at the expense of opportunities, do I lose face in the industry for being away for so long? I suppose once you fall off radar there's really no further levels of non-radar you can go; you're either in or you're out. I don't doubt that I can get back in front of casting directors, I just hope it won't take long to regain what I had.

In many ways, I regret that I left LA at all. It was probably a good and necessary thing for my personal growth that I will appreciate even more later in my life but I feel like I was starting to build up a rapport with the professional side of the industry; now that goodwill feels squandered. I didn't realize how much it all meant to me when I decided to put it aside and move sixty miles East of LA to Riverside. In the months that followed, especially after moving to Boston this past June, my longing for the industry only grew more and more intense.

I helped stoke the creative fires by plunging into all the background that I could get booked to work on but those gigs are disappearing in the snowfall and my fires are dimming behind an unsatisfying paycheck job doing Uber, watching the seats of my almost one year old car get stained by the bodies of strangers.

The majority of yesterday was spent creating promotional materials for my co-star and guest star appearances on My Crazy Ex, Deep Undercover, and Threads. I updated my postcard, worked on a composite card, and edited a holiday picture featuring my dog and I in Santa hats that I added in Photoshop; that last one will be on social media soon. I also made two promo images that I'll use upon my imminent return to Los Angeles. Today was spent mostly on editing concise versions of my TV appearances to add to my resume on LA Casting and Actors Access when I'm back to subscribing subscribing to those services.

Noteworthy Events
11/27 @ 6:30AM
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11/28 @ 6:30AM
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11/29 @ 6:30AM
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12/04 @ 7:00AM
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